Dermike

Well, so about a week ago after a great night of hanging out with the amazing Odessa, i have to venture back to her house in Woodsville to drop her off. But on our ride home we both saw something rather unexpected. As we were just getting out of North Haverhill i saw what appeared to be a person walking across the road, the very odd thing was that the person was very close to the car and appeared to be covered in a thick fog. After seeing this i jumped a lil and faced in the direction of the person, i was startled and then proceeded to tell Odessa and to my shock Odessa said that she had seen the same thing but just thought that her mind was playing trick on her. It was very strange and i want to see it again and maybe even capture it on film or something.
Well last night was just a fun filled day spend with Odessa and Dylan, we kept traveling from my Woodsville to my house then back to Woodsville, because the power was out in Haverhill and we wanted to play some videogames and such. We just ended up going to Odessa's house and hung out. Odessa told me that her Nana's (RIP) room door have keep opening up by itself and we were determined to catch whatever it was that was opening the door on film. We then set up a video camera and pressed record and walked away in hopes of capturing what ever it was. Well we were walked away for a while and then checked the door, and sure enough the door was open. We then reviewed the tape and found out what had been opening the door, it was Odessa's dog. The dog knew of a spot on the door that if you apply the right amount of pressure the door will open, and we tried this and numerous times it worked. As for today Odessa and i are going to venture and see Saw 3, i really hope that it will be good.

Not much new has happend, i have now got a job, working at a general store. Hopefully i will find a better job soon but at for now it is good to have some form of income. No more being bored and roaming around the internet aimlessly.

I have hung out with Odessa alot this past week or more, and i have loved every second of it. Odessa and i tried on various costumes that she had at her house, that was fun and strange. We just mixed up costumes and had some funny outcomes. We also tried to move this castle thing that she has to set upi for halloween, but it has water in it and was a bit to heavy for the both of us to drag to the front of her house, but we tried. So we decided to do something that involved less work. We move this power wheels jeep thing to the front of the house and hosed it off, i got my chucks a bit wet but i was cool with it. LOL. We also spent hours hooked on watching "Ghost Hunter" i really love that show, the stuff that they are able to find somtimes just amazes me. Always a great time spent with Odessa. I will now be able to possibly afford to buy stuff and do some other things that having money makes easier.

Well, i think that i woke up sometime around 11 today, because my mother woke me up to have me move my car into the garage so that the senior bus could drop off my grandmother here for the day. I then prceeded to get myself together and drive off to get an application for a job at Aldrich's, and then to Woodsville to get my grams glasses fixed. Which surprisingly didnt take long at all.

When i arrived home i went inside and dropped off the glasses and dropped off the application in my room. My day felt a lil empty, and i remebered it was because Odessa was in Hanover for the day, i missed her. I reall y did. She is of course back now and i am glad. She is what makes everyday so special to me and everyday worth liveing.

Well, i have been job hunting for the past few days and still no luck, trying to apply to Wally world and Staples today, i tried appling to Wal-mart and Shaws yesterday but i forgot some past work info, i hate the damn kiosk applicaton things, they thed to piss me off, lol. The buttons never seem to work to my liking. I filled out the shaws application yesterday and i forgot to bring my work information so i didnt have the phone numbers for my referances which was stupid of me. It was nice because i brought Odessa along for company and i always enjoy my time spent with her. Today i am going it alone, again to littleton, this time alone, and appling to Staples and Walmart; and then hanging out with Odessa, probably at her house. i love hanging out with her. YES Smallville is on tonight, and tomorrow is Numbers which i missed last friday. i love those two shows and Lost is on next wednesday that is always fun to watch, lets just hope that they stick with new episodes no more of this new episode then rerun crap. I hate having it be a new episode every other week, it is quite annoying.

I have not updated this thing in forever. Wow! Well lets see that has happened, i meet a special someone to me that goes by the name Odessa, she is such a great person, i dont know how i had survived all those years with out her. Her grandmother is at Dartmouth due to cancer and complications in her treatment, please all that read this post pray for Odessa'a "Nana."

In other news i got laid off from my job this past monday and i have had no luck in finding a new one, so if anyone can help me out with that, that would be much appreciated.

Musically, i have a drum set now but it really needs new heads and new cymbals (thinking of selling it to get a better one), i think that my drumming is coming along nicely, i am leaning more toward the punk/rock/grunge rock style of drumming. Soulfest 2006 was amazing most of all because i went with Odessa and we camped out this year which was a load of fun. It was fun/amazing seeing all the bands perform and experience the whole Soul Fest event.

I really dont know what else to say. i will try to post alot more to these that actaully care and read this thing LMAO!!
Expect another journal entry shortly.

Yes i am finally turning that magical age of 21, and what am i doing on that day, well a lil fam reunion thing then off to play a show with my 2 bands, i have yet to know when the show is at. just playing things by my one ear (if you know me you will get that hint of sarcasum) and then i have no idea what i will do. Sunday Andy and i are gonna hang out like the good ol days, only we have cars now, back then we didnt. i am excited to hang out with him once more. he's one of my best BUDDDDDDDIIIIIIEEEEESSSSSSS!! o and my bro jerm has moved back home for the time being, the house he was living in was sold and they had to move out, they meaning him his wife and 2 kids.

Why do i feel like crap? Why do i still miss that certain person? Why do i still like/"LOVE" her? Why do i think about her every day? Why am i so lonely? Why am i so miserable? Why do i feel like there is no hope for me? Why do i sometimes feel like people hate me? Why do i sometimes feel like i am doomed to live the rest of my life alone? Why am i writing this? Why would anyone even CARE?

i applied to Upper Valley Press, hopefully i will get a job there rather then Wal-Mart. went to the high school to show Feid my porfolio but he was too busy yelling at his class, so i just left after hangingout for about 30 minutes, i may try again sometime.

Well i finally got a Car, 1998 Honda Civic LX, and i am loving the freedom of having it. I have an interveiw with Wal-mart for a stocking postion tomorrow, hey i gotta start small and work my why up the ladder that is the real world.